Despite the fact I have awakened with headaches the past two mornings, I am a happy woman! I am feeling a bit more motivated and hopeful. And I have changed so much over the past 10 years. Looking back I wonder how anyone was able to tolerate me at all. lol. Nah, it wasn't that bad. But I had my times. Mostly I was a winy and needy brat. I grew up though. Well, I was forced to grow up. You do what you have to to survive. Right? The friends I still have from High School have been very understanding about what a selfish brat I was. And hopefully not too many of them hold that against me. I stayed off in my own little world and people thought I was a snob. I probably was. But I never meant to be mean or uncaring. My home life at that time was challenging to say the least. And no matter how bad my life gets, I could never live back at home. It's not going to happen, even if I have to live in a yurt!
Raising my daughter by myself for the past four years has broken me of any of my sissy whining habits. I've developed a real no nonsense attitude. And I come from a long line of do it or die kind of people. Especially on my Father's side. That is why I had so many problems as a teen. I was uncontrollable. I've always done exactly what I wanted to do. My parents hated that. They wanted me to do what they wanted me to do. The more they tightened the reins, the more I fought. They will never admit that that is the way things went down, but just ask my Aunt.
I really have lived a colorful life. It hasn't been all bad, in fact most of it has been fun. And it's just getting better. I am more independent and free than I ever have been. It's a pretty good feeling. I am in school and make good grades. I have a part time job and my daughter is my pride and joy. I know that no matter what happens in life, I'll be okay. I'm a strong capable woman. It's time to start making some great things happen in my life. As far off as my dreams and goals seem right now, I have a lot of hope and faith that I'll reach them. Hard work and determination will make that happen.
I don't normally do new years resolutions. Should I?
Posted by: Miranda | 12/04/2009 at 01:56 PM
What is your New Year's resolution list?
Posted by: Stephanie | 12/02/2009 at 06:19 AM